Secrets

When people don't tell me things, I start to feel un-important. I start to feel that feeling of guilt. I ask myself what I did to them to make them not to tell me. If I don't find a reason for that person not telling me, I start to create judgements. I start assuming things, even if it is too scary to think about. My parents have kept a lot of secrets from me and I mostly eaves-drop and hear almost everything. But there are A LOT of things that they don't tell me and I start to create assumptions. I just hope and pray that these assumptions aren't true, but the only way that I will know that it isn't true is if they tell me.

When I hear a secret about someone, it is normally not from the person whom the secret is about. It is mostly a purposely instigated, dramatic lie. I am totally anti-drama, but I hang out with drama instigators. Most of the time, it follows me. People come up to me saying:

- does she like Josh because she is flirting with him a lot?

- did you hear what Kaitlyn said about you?

- you do know that she hates your guts, right?

But mostly each sentence starts with four letters:

- don't tell anyone...............but-

ITS MADNESS!!!!!!! Don't tell people if you don't want anyone to know! Geez loweez.

Excuse my rudeness, I am very passionate about this subject. Anyway, kids today just can't keep there mouth shut! Don't tell the ones you can't trust. I learned that lesson the other day. I told my best friend a really big secret. I completely trusted her then (and I still do now, just not as much). The next day we went with some other friends and she blurts it out in front of everyone. I confess that I lied that day to cover up the secret. I was pretty angry but I got over it. I learned that if I don't want anyone to know, don't tell anyone. Easier said than done. trust me.